My step forward is that I think I found a therapist today. I had an initial appointment, and I think I like her. I'm not entirely sure what, exactly, I'm hoping for as an outcome, but I figure it can't hurt to have a safe place to vent, if nothing else.
The three steps back is that I'm running on empty as I head into a weekend, which then heads into a holiday week with highlights of parent-teacher conferences on Monday with a 30-minute gap between the conference and when we need to be about 20 minutes away (in good traffic) for a visit with a pediatric urologist to discuss Ellie's recurrent urinary tract infections. Apparently pediatric urologists aren't in as much demand as pediatric neurosurgeons, because we don't see the latter until January.
So that's Monday. On Tuesday, I have the joyful experience of my first root canal. I'm hoping I don't regret the decision to decline the endodontist's kind offer of Ativan to help relax me for the two-hour experience. Unlike my dentist, he doesn't offer nitrous oxide. But I don't want to need a ride, because that means dragging Scott away from work again. (Although the endodontist's office is fairly close to Scott's office ...)
What's next? Oh yeah, Wednesday. When I have my second appointment with the new therapist. Although I realized after I left my first appointment on Thursday afternoon that maybe it's not such a great idea to expect that I'll feel up to going and talking for an hour with someone after the two days prior with a four-day holiday weekend ahead. So now I have to figure out whether I should cancel that appointment, or go ...
But first, I need some sleep in a big way. I had a rough night Wednesday night and between my therapy appointment and going to Ellie's dental checkup (which I thought my presence was crucial for because I thought we were going to talk about putting in the retainer to correct her crossbite, but it turns out they can't do that until her 6-year molars are all the way in, which means not for another 12 to 18 months.
Good night, and have a good weekend!
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